hi there again

Its me again. its been a while that i didn't write anything
im still hanging here as always,  way i feel it has been always complicated, somehow i feel nuts some part of me says you'r good pal, ever since then i don't know which one that i hang on? lol
i certainly consider myself as man who has unstable feeling coz way i feel always has two sights.
which helps me a lot for certain cases to keep myself down and chill, at the same time bothers me too like way i make decision its quite funny let me tell ya how it works usually it works like russian roulette. it doesn't matter way i feel its only about which one logically makes more sense i hope you know what i mean. i'm an dumb cunt
recently i regret a lot, what i did in past and what i'm still hanging on!!! is there something pulling me back or what? i'm asking myself a lot with is questions, really am i losing something that i deserved while i'm young? no one knows the answer unfortunately except me as i rick myself to lose everything that i build till now. its actually pity excuse for calm myself honestly i wont lose anything i just freaking afraid of someday i look back regret what i did.
being critic with myself is what i do best !!!!
do not overrate yourself ask question who you are? who know you more than you do ? its you pal
do not care about what people says its just you be honest with yourself at least whether you don't with others!!!!
try to tell the truth, fight for righteousness... as you says to others be the one who wants to be most unless its not worth to pretend one. yeah
show the world what you do whether its bad or good!
just do not ashamed to be keep it real or who you really are!!!

blanck (black n white)

oird bi ooriigoo het iheer mederch bn medehgui genet l amidral harcagaan hooson hondii baidalaar duurch ehlej buig anzaarch baina aliwaag uiridhaasaa iluu anzaarch, gancaaraa baihiig urgelj uguileh bolloo hen negen geltgui buh hunii yaria nowsh zugeer l hog shaar met sangadh bolj bi dotorooo amidarch bas delberch bn odoo sonsoh hogjim bas manaig hogjooh zuil bugd alga bolj ehlej bn
aidas bas uchir shaltgaan bugdiig gaihaj ach holbogdol ogohgui bn !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nud yu harj bas yu unerlej yu husch bgaagaa yalgaj salgahad hurtel hund bolj ehlej bn!!!
say helee tsus asgartaln hazchlaa odoo eruu manni chicherch amaar duuren bulen tsus ursaj bn yuch sangdaj bodogdhoo bolichlooooooo hayanahiig hicheesengui zugeer zongoor n orhichihloo odoo odoo odoooo ......................................

SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! a'ight

don't try to explain, don't try to judge anything, hushhhhhh
don't talk to much, don't lie don't try to show off your just hush up ....
don't try to mention about yourself !!!! don't do it please .... be real and be simple, take a breath and take a rest

silent snowy night at 4am in morning

i'm walking the streets alone. here is only one thing is with me which is silence n fall in snow flurries. i see smooth red colored sky and shaded trees, crows. by the way kinda slippery in here.
stop lets sit here for a while just check this all beautiful situation the sky and trees, crows and there is across of the road one drunk or collapsed guy is screaming out and crawling on the snowy floor two of other people trying to support him up. while i've just found piece of tree check it out .... throwing away! feel full of satisfied ......... everyday i walk this way lets just try another one. listening to night train songs from my phone.... its make sense. spread my hands up like flying, clap my hand and close my eyes and walking in the middle of the road !!!! finally i got home